Fit Healthy Katie

I had a 500g loss this week.  Pretty stoked about it.  I ate well, small meals and tried to avoid junk where possible. Only had one Chocky bar on Monday, and then fish and chips last night, after I weighed myself.

I had a stressful week, proud of myself for not spiralling into deep depression, but I still don’t know the outcome of what will happen.  Stuff happened at work, not my fault but my boss advised it would be best if I went into damage control, possibility of my job on the line….which is fucking bullshit because I did everything I was supposed to do, anyway I know my rights and I know what to do if I have to go down that path, was just hoping I wouldn’t have to, since I FINALLY found a job I am GOOD and and LOVE.

So with all that going on, I think it’s a miracle I had a 500g loss, managed to keep exercise going and my cals reasonably on track. Proud of myself for that if nothing else.

Next week I will continue to eat well and try to do more of the shred, Level 2 is HARD, Screw you plyometrics…..lets see what happens, best if I have the mindset of taking each day as it comes until I know whats going on with work.  Wish me luck…

Katie.

This past week I’ve done Level 1 of Jillian Michaels “30 Day Shred”.  It’s motivated me to get of my expanded ass and get fit again, I’ve combined it with healthy eating and 1.25lt of water a day (at least).  I feel clean on the inside, it’s weird and hard to describe but my skin looks clearer and my mind feels like it’s brushing off the cloud of sugar poisoning I had been under for months, if not a year or so…

I feel like I am slowly getting myself back and returning to the Fit Healthy Katie I was 18 months ago.  I’ve wanted this ever since I changed jobs and started to go a different direction in my life.  It’s such a relief to finally see that it’s coming to fruition, all I had to do was believe in myself and I knew I would get there.

I weighed in at 87.7kg this morning, 1,5kg heavier than I was at the first weigh-in for the year, 600g heavier than my last weigh-in and 14.6kg heavier than my lowest weight so far.  I’ll be damned if I don’t get to 65kg if it’s the last thing I do.  Even though my weight went up and my motivation went down, I NEVER EVER STOPPED TRYING.

It’s time for me to get serious about my weight and my lifestyle. I know how it feels to not exercise, eat junk and feel depressed, and I know how it feels to eat healthy, exercise and feel positive and radiant and confident, like nothing can stop me.  I know which version of myself I’d prefer to be.

This coming week I’ll finish Level 1 of the 30 day shred, move into Level 2 and continue eating healthy and drinking plenty of water.  I know what to do, I’ve done it before and I WILL do it again!

rhifit:

Only wussy ones compared to some of you but I’m working on it!

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Don’t know why, but I can’t control my eating….it’s killing my motivation and I’m so sick of it! I can’t keep any of the weight off because I have a good week, then a bad week, then another good one and then bad again, it’s mental! As a result, I had a 1.8kg gain this week.

ARGH…..This is bullshit, I can only try so hard, I need a loss just to tell me that it’ll all be OK. I can’t give up though, no matter how hard it gets, you have to keep going….otherwise you’ll never see your goal, no matter how far away it seems, and it seems outta sight at the moment.

I’ve had no oven so it’s been hard to cook healthy dinners, I’ve been trying to make salads and things but it’s getting really boring, so unfortunately I have had to go to restaurants or take out (as healthy as possible) for dinners all last week.

I don’t even know what I should say in relation to my “plan for next week” like I usually do, what’s the point? I have trouble sticking to it and I think it placed unnecessary pressure on me to “DO THE RIGHT THING”.

I’ll just keep moving forward, baby steps, right now I am expecting gains, as I am trying to build a solid routine with exercise, then I’ll introduce the healthy food into it once I can hit the gym like I used to, without a thought and fully enjoying myself.

Good luck in the coming week everyone, I only have 1 week to go before I go back to work, I find this highly depressing and feel it could sabotage my efforts with exercise/healthy eating….